Back on the Grind: Getting and Staying Focused

I’ve been wanting to write a new blog for months. Sitting down with my laptop with ideas running through my head seems to be far as I get. Once I prepare the thoughts in my mind, the words begin to flow. Then this happens: I read it and start to second guess myself. Then, I’ll walk away to do other things to distract my thoughts. I tell myself that I’ll come back to it later; only to repeat the cycle.

What I’ve learned throughout my writing process is that is therapeutic but it’s extremely surreal to read the thoughts that constantly twirl in my brain. Sharing my life experiences with autism is in hopes to have others learn about it, be more aware of signs and symptoms, and gain acceptance for the autism spectrum disorder community. But I am aware that it also leaves room for negative judgement. Too many times, I’ve allowed my mind to focus on the wrong things. Will somebody think I’m glorifying autism? Will they think I’m trying to come across as an expert in autism? These are a couple of thoughts that’s taken residency in my mind.

Constantly, I struggle to push those thoughts away. Raising a child on the spectrum is far from easy. Often times, it is frustrating. I can feel somber, anger, discouraged, and hurt all at same time. Yet, there are numerous moments to be ecstatic and proud! I must admit it has been more beneficial to relish in the positives. To learn from the trials and tribulations. Meltdowns are a form of communication. The key is understand what they are attempting to convey. Even verbal children find difficulty in finding the right words to express themselves.

I’m not an autism expert but I am experienced in raising a son on the spectrum for several years. It feels awesome to celebrate accomplishments, no matter how colossal or minuscule. It is my desire to give encouragement to families whose child has been recently diagnosed. I want families to know that they are not alone. I want people to know that those on the autism spectrum are more than their diagnosis. They are astonishing, vigorous, courageous, delightful, and such an inspiration to find joy in the what’s most important in life: LOVE